Wednesday, 18 January 2012

LIFE'S NATURAL HIGHS

  • Hearing your favourite song
  • Listening to the rain
  • Walking barefoot
  • Shaking wet hair
  • Bubble baths
  • Drawing on a moustache
  • Fireworks
  • Giggling
  • Long conversations late at night
  • Friends
  • Good friends
  • Getting a genuine, sincere, compliment
  • Falling in love
  • Haunted houses
  • Fun fairs with fairy floss
  • Laughing at an inside joke
  • Laughing at yourelf
  • Laughing so hard your stomach hurts
  • Laughing for absolutely no reason in particular
  • Having someone run their fingers through your hair
  • Burying yourself into your bedsheets
  • Getting completely drenched in the rain
  • Sleeping in your own bed after being away
  • Crying without consequences
  • Speaking a different language
  • Knowing the steps to a dance
  • Taking a nice photo
  • Taking a crazy photo
  • Screaming really, really loudly
  • Watching horror movies with friends
  • Watching horror movies with friends other people can see
  • Rollercoasters
  • Travelling to an exotic country
  • Travelling to a country that doesn't sleep
  • Finding the thing you thought you lost
  • Getting a discount on something unexpectedly
  • Drinking a nice cup of warm liquid
  • Bear hugs
  • Animals

Meanwhile in my life...

Tuesday, 17 January 2012

Another day, why can't I sleep?


Anyone fallen in love recently?

See, this is the topic I thought of today to 'chat' about. You see, I'm not really interested in the topic unless I'm completely shredding it analytically to pieces. Ever since I was four, I think, I've always harboured affectionate feelings to some poor boy who'd have to deal with my obnoxious shyness... if you know what I mean = in staring at them and then blushing when caught and turning away like an idiot. I confess, I was that annoying asian kid who just hid behind vertical cylindricals, stalking the fleshy form of their affections, never having the guts to speak up. I liked all sorts of weird boys but ever since I started high school, I started to pay attention to them less and less.

I've always thought that love was underrated and that the only form of the stuff I needed was the kind that was given unconditionally by parents and sometimes pets (usually when food is involved). Like the sunny season character in 500 Days of Summer, I am quite indifferent to love hearts and romance and I don't believe it my heart having the capacity to jump out of my chest in meeting that special someone. I'm not sure if you do the same but I want to assure you that I'm not the least bit pessimistic about it, despite my complacency.

I'm quite content with my life, with the love I receive and the small amounts that radiate from me on winter nights. I also like how I spread this 'love' onto other things - how I love walking barefoot, drinking tea, painting my toes, stretching in bed... Life's natural highs sort of... (I'll do a post on that later). But I really want to focus, not on my absurd lack of interest for love, but on the fact that I have an ironic penchant for obession, to be a fan of something not in the romantic sense.

You see, I have this 'thing' where I admire people, unromantically and I'm pretty sure it's strange because of my inclination to not really feel anything when a boy gives me flowers, let alone his heart. And I think it's because of my ultimate fear of growing up. I have this phobia... well not really a phobia, but I am so scared, that sometimes I can't sleep thinking that in years to come I'll have responsibility and societal constraints placed on me. I am so scared. Scared shitless, about growing up. I absolutely hate it. Not because I'm aging or that I'll lose my youth, but of all the new experiences that I'll have to have and it just makes my knees buckle; the thought of buying a house, getting a job, losing contact with your family and friends, dying alone. It's all so petty. It makes me want to curl up in foetal position and rock myself into delirium.

And I think thi unromantic admiration makes me stay a kid sort of. Love is growing up, people say and this is sort of the last survival technique that my mind employs so that I can trick myself into staying a kid.

Oh how I wish I could go to Neverland. I'd fall for Peter Pan any day.

Sunday, 15 January 2012

(●`・ω・´●)モキュ♪

They said I was really desperate to start this so late. 'They' as in the dissectable parts of my conscience and 'late' as in - detailing the fashionable procrastination which has so long kept me from setting up a blog. To be honest with you, I've always wanted one of these things, but I never really understood why. Why would anyone waste hours in creating a reality that innumerates the countless meaningless exploits they've had- or not-had. No one cares really and I get told that so often. People care about things that they shouldn't give attention to and ignore the things which should really be noticed. It's like society's fad with celebrities, (Great, that's a body worth fucking that you'll never have.) and I have completely taken into consideration the possibility that no one will take any interest into what I have to type but it still gives me a perverse satisfaction that I'm going to leave something of mine in the cyberworld and not have to worry about the consequences...

It's like, as a kid, did anyone go apeshit when they saw those floating snow-like, seed things -> *... I don't know how to explain it, but it'd be like a bits of thread joined in the middle to form sort of an asterisk and it'd just float around people, like one of those creepy spirit balls in movies that always guides the character to some hidden dungeon that later explains why they were adopted/or some other massive, cliche climax (oh baby, oh baby >.>). But anyway, I could go crazy when I saw one of these babies whenever I was a kid and try and catch them. I heard somewhere if you caught one, made a wish and then let it go, it'll come true. Bunch of liars I'm surrounded by, I tell you. [When I was six, I wished for a mouse... never got one. Don't ask why anyone- just. Don't. You weren't? O.K. Great.]

So I'd catch it, made some obnoxious wish and then when I let it go, because of all the aggression I put into catching it- squashing bits of it's physiology, it would just sort of collapse on the ground and wouldn't float anymore. As you can guess... I did the whole Darla 'fishie, why won't you swim fiiiishiiiieee' from Finding Nemo, and then when I got over it, I'd just skip off thinking of ice-cream and bubbles.. But it's that feeling I get when I post stuff; I-did-something-completely-inconsequential-today,-I'm-going-to-fold-my-socks-now sort of mentality, and it doesn't feel half bad.

So, more about the title (which is the reason for this post) and less explaining as to why I'm even blogging in the first place:

Deliquesence... has anyone heard of it. Google it. Well, to save you the time, it means =

Definition: the process in which a soluble substance picks up water vapor from the air to fom a solution. In order for deliquescence to occur, the vapor pressure of the water in the air must be greater than the vapor pressure of the saturated solution.

I take chemistry at school and I still didn't even know it existed. I found it through serendipity... oh, that old friend of mine. Actually, where not that close so don't suspect anything.

I used it as the title because in essence in means what I want to do: make something out of seemingly nothing, which no one knows or cares about. Also because it sounds cool. >.>

Enough reading... tell me, what words do you think are cool?


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